Steady phase, steady life

Hello lovely people!

Its been a while since ive updated my blog and i admit i slacked off during the summer holidays here in New Zealand to which btw it was the best summer so far. I could say that its the best as i thought it was different to what i usually do during summer.
Today's blog post is about what is going on with my personal life. Not to give out a lot of details about it but i wanna share how blessed i've been lately.

 For those of you that have seen my previous blogs, you guys are aware about the boy who i welcomed freely into my life last year, february. At first i was scared because of what people will say as i didnt have a clean break up with my previous boyfriend before i started going out with Chris. It wasnt easy. We hid our relationship to a lot of people until we decided that we dont even care anymore. Months passed, we let people say what they had to say and eventually it just stopped. The assurance was there. Even though we've only been dating for a few months back then, he made sure that i was never hurt physically or emotionally. A few months later, our relationship was stable. I was assured how much he loves me everyday even after a tough day and vice versa. He was in high school and i was in university. I had a lot of anxiety attacks during my first year in uni but he also made sure that things will get by soon. Which did because after the first semester, i was at ease. Considering that we rarely see each other back then, we made it to the point where we are very comfortable around each other. And then we hit summer holidays. That was his last year in high school so we got 4 months worth of summer holidays. We went to different places such as maraetai beach, hunua falls, hamilton, waiwera and a lot more. Those are the few places we went to during the summer holidays. It was great. And then february came when my relatives from the Philippines came and he got to meet them and also met my parents. It took about a year before he met them but here already met my siblings way before he met my parents. After our first year together, things got though. We got into a lot of fights and misunderstanding. I cried, he was upset. i was frustrated, he was confused. It came to a point where we nearly broke it off because it felt like we fight about the same thing over and over again. But ofcourse, he promised me one thing from the beginning. When he said he love me, he also said he'll never get tired of us. He proved that to me after all the stupid fights that we had.
I am so blessed to have been given this blessing in my life and one things for sure, it will never be easy. But with him to reassure me about the positive light in life, i can get through it.

Bb, i know you're gonna somehow read this. And if you are, thank you. Because you've always been my number one support since day one. And thank you for letting me be that person to witness you grow from being a teenager to an adult. Also, thank you for the amount of patience that you have showed me these past few months. I cannot thank you enough for always encouring me to do better. I cant wait for whats in store for us in the future. You may be leaving to serve for your church next year but know that i will always support you and when you get back, ill still be here waiting for you.


And ofcourse thank you God for this wonderful story. You have given me so many blessings to which some of them I dont deserve but I will forever be grateful for these simple wonderful life that you have blessed upon me.



and if this was a dream, i dont ever want to wake up from it

Love lots, 

Nina ❤️

11th.

It is every girl's dream to fall in love at the right place and at the right time. As for me, I've never really imagine making a commitment for 11 months with the same guy who annoyed me at school. I want this. Everyday. From starting my day with a cheesy short message to ending my day with a reminder that he will be there for me for when I wake up in the morning. I've always thought about the blessings that I have in life and I am so grateful that he is a part of that blessing. I've been patient enough to have been given one of the many blessings that I never really expected to come. Though at times, I may take it for granted but he's always there to remind me to keep my feet on the ground and to remember how it all started. Indeed, he's one of the best thing that ever happened to me. I've always thought of myself as stubborn, impatient and hard to deal with and as far as I know, you've put up with me and my attitude for the past 11 months and you're still going. You've seen me grow, fall down, be happy, be disappointed in so many ways and yet, you showed compassion regardless of how angry or upset I was. You've heard so many stories and life goals from me and its amazing how someone like you is willing to fulfill some of them. You always insist of doing things for me, even the simplest things like opening a bottle of coconut water and everytime, I always ask myself, 'what would I do without you?' As we grow up, we see more things around us. That includes temptations and with you, it's always easy to say no. You've helped me so much and you dont even realise it. Thank you for always supporting my goals especially health wise. You know how much I work hard on the things that takes a lot of time and yet you never fail to push me to my limits. I know we get on each other's nerves and I thank you because you never really let me sleep upset or angry. You always insist on talking about the problem and I think thats one of the things that makes us stronger, followed by our goals. We may seem different to other people's eyes but to me you are perfect. Despite the fact that you're taller than me by a foot, we dont share the same religion or race, we grew up differently, I'm older than you by 3 months, our families are different, we dont share the same interest, to me you are beyond perfect. To me, we balance each other out.
As a woman growing up and exploring new things in life, I am relieved that I share that experience with you. A few weeks from now, we'll be on our way to our first milestone. 1 year. Who would've thought. I guess someone does write a better love story than I do. I'm happy that I let Him handle my love story this time. No more heartache and pain. I've learnt a lot and applied it to the present time.
If you ask me when it all started, to be honest, we both dont know how but it did and its the best thing that has ever happened to me and I cant emphasize enough how happy this guy makes me feel. Theres not a lot of boys out there that are like him and sure enough, God gave me one to help me restore my faith and see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Here's to more adventures and days, months and years together.

happy 11th.

Love lots,

when..

When you get on that plane any time soon, remember I'll be there when you come back. Though I can't promise I wont cry when that day gets closer. 

When you get on that plane and go for 2 years without seeing you and being with you physically, I can't promise I wont cry every now and then everytime I remember you. 

I'll always miss you. 2 years. That means two years without you physically. Two long years of being alone. Without the person who would protect me through anything. Without the person who would listen to anything and everything, funny or not. Two years of being alone. No bestfriend. No nothing. 2 long years. 

I dont want to waste any days being angry or away from you. I just cant imagine myself going out in the real world without your support. My bestfriend, my motivator, my number one supporter and the person whos willing to take all the burdens from me, ill miss you so much.

When you get on that plane anytime soon, I promjse you one thing and that is ill support and love you through thick and thin. 

Ill wait 730 days. Maybe less. Maybe more. 

I'll wait for the day you come back. 

Love lots,