Page 2 out of 365

Its only been two days since 2014 started. And i feel like i havent let go of my 2013 life due to the fact that a lot has happened recently and its not exactly easy to let go of what happened recently. 

My family isnt a perfect family and I admit that because I grew up with these people  ever since I was little. I learned most of my life lessons through them and the biggest challenge have recently hit me and my family to the extent that one has to leave for the better. I dont exactly know how its better but its happening. Its happening so soon and im not quite sure if im ready for it. Not gonna expect anything as I know God will provide not just for me but also for my family. 

Secondly, for most of you who frequently reads my blog, you guys knew I had a special someone. Well now its just me again. All alone. With no one. Single pringle as they would say. Recently, he decided to end our relationship as according to him, I made him feel like shit. Idk how but as far as I know, I was the one who did most of the effort and It felt like I was the only one trying to make it work. So technically, i should be the one who should feel like crap. But with that, Ive realised that With all the relationship that I had, im always the one who gets left behind, feeling like shit for a million times. So you cant really blame me for the fact that im always dramatic as i tend to overthink. Especially when I like someone and I dont know what they're thinking. Its not like I need to know but I linda need assurance from them. Up to this point, the start of my 2014 isnt as good as i thought it would be. But im hoping for better days or weeks ahead of me.

 2014 is a year of responsibility and focus for me. Responsibility as a daughter and i need that focus as a student and as a person who is willing to change physically. 

I started gyming back in August 2013 with 57kgs. At December 2013, I was 53.5kgs and i have more water than body fat in my body according to the gym personnel that helped me. I cant wait to make more progress at the gym as I know so far, ive lost a few inches around my thighs and waist and my butt got bigger by a little bit. My main goal this january is no white rice and to lose 1.5kgs and a few inches around my arms and my stomach. I also started as a size 10 but now im a size 8 and i could fit small size clothes. Im also more confident to go out wearing more skin. 

Hoping for better days ahead of me and I wish I stay motivated :) 

Thats all for now. 

Im kinda happy but not completely but its enough.

Happy New Year folks~ 

Heres a photos of my page 2 out of 365 :) 

Auckland is such a pretty place. 

Much love,

Nina :)