Its good to be back blogging again.
Recently ive been feeling so blessed and I couldnt ask for more.
I've come to the point of my life where I've destroyed the walls that I built around me during the times where all I wanted was to get away from people and from who I really was. At that point of my life, I became a completely different person who didn't appreciate what was given in front of me. I became selfish and judgemental to the extent that Im hurting others, emotionally. And up to one point, I realize that I was left all alone. I was feeling lonely deep down inside and it was getting harder for me to show happiness and everyday, I had to pretend to be strong. My faith was also affected by that and I had to question myself. If I was doing it right. If this is who I am. And when the insecurities and the self esteem problems came, thats when I realized that it wasn't me. It was a complete different version of myself. The person who was trying to get away from everything took over who I was supposed to be. There are times that when we say something about someone, it will only be either good or bad. A little honesty sort of hurts and its better than lying. I admit im nowhere near perfect. Judge me because of the things that I do but you can never take me down. Never again. It happened to me before and I wont let it happen again. To the insecurities and self esteem problems, thank you because you helped me find who I really was.
People sin. It's inevitable. We're gonna keep doing it and we're gonna keep asking for forgiveness. As we ask for that reconciliation, we also learn from our mistakes which could help us understand who we really are.
I have been serving with YFC for 4 years now. I've been in the community for ages which also helped me find the true me. I have been so blessed to be a part of a community that accepts me for who I am and also to find true friends whom I can trust.
And with that, may God be praised.
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