Its been a while since I've updated this blog and today was the day I decided to put something a little personal but not really putting up all the details. Just a brief description of how good things are going lately.
There's this one question that has been bugging me in the past few weeks and I haven't really found an answer to it yet. Its one of those life questions to where you relate your old self, new self and your future self. Growing up for me was a bit though. I felt independent at a young age, I had no one to rely on but myself. I had support from other people but even so, I had trust issues. I was always afraid to trust and be alone in the end. But to be honest, being alone didn't really scare me. Somehow, its the fact that people will eventually leave you and not care at all.
Recently, in the beginning of the year, I started dating a guy whom I friend zoned the most during my time in Edgewater College. Mostly because I was dating someone at that time. Honestly, who would've thought that from being annoying to simply the most caring person I've ever encountered, I would adore this guy so much. I have so much more to learn about him and its only been almost 5 months since we started dating but within such a short time, he gave me a lot of things to see, things to experience and cherish and I'm happy to share these amazing adventures with him. Although we have so much more to explore and discover, I cannot wait to be with him when the opportunity comes.
I am who I am because I have someone like him to complete the missing puzzle. Everyone has that missing puzzle that they are yet to find. For me, my family and friends have encourage me to do better. But to have someone who is willing to encourage, support and be there through thick and thin is something that im absolutely blessed for. I believe that I am about to face tough challenges in life and other circumstances and when that happens, im ready. This is because I know someone is willing to do so much for as long as he can, I cant emphasize enough the fact that I am so blessed to have someone like him. He's always been there for me since day one.
For someone like me who is so used to doing things on her own, I can be difficult sometimes. I can be rainbows and butterflies but I can also be thunders and storms. My life perspective isn't always as it seems. Sometimes, I tend to do decisions that are indecisive and impulsive. I don't necessarily have that control but when I do, I tend to just do what seems to be good for everyone but doesn't really benefit me.
Growing up for me, I have goals in life that I'm willing to achieve the hard way. I've learnt how to pick myself up when I fall during hard times but life is so much easier when someone is there to encourage you to keep going and just by giving me enough motivation.
Although I know we have a lot of differences, and somehow, he compliments my imperfections and I love the way he makes me feel perfect.
All I'm saying is that, I'm truly blessed to have someone like Chris. I couldn't ask for anything more than what hes been giving me, whether it may be materialistic or just a simple gesture. I cannot wait spend more eating adventures and maybe travel with you.
i love you :)
Nina ♥
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